Dad would have been celebrating a birthday today. Lately, when I think of him, I get really teary eyed, sometimes because I'm thinking happy thoughts, and sometimes because I am so incredibly sad that he is gone. It's strange, when he first passed away I was sad, but I must not have taken the time to mourn him then. That, or it's a delayed reaction... denial... I don't know. But it seems to be hitting me like a ton of bricks lately. I miss visiting with him and learning from him. I wish Davin could have had more time with him, they had such a tight bond. I wish he could have met Charis (although, he probably got to hold her in his arms before any of us).
I have a request for anyone who reads this. I want to make a scrapbook about Dad's life. I have some pictures, and would always love to have more. And I really need stories from you all. Stories about happenings, timelines, relationships. Anything! If you need my email address, you can send me a message on facebook, or ask Mom for it. Or, feel free to comment here. Get in touch with me however you like, and please pass this request on to other family members and friends! Thank you!
Happy Birthday, Dad. You are always in our hearts!
2 comments:
My heart breaks for you. I know the feelings you describe so well. It hurts. It will always hurt. You just "learn" to live with it in a way. Even 14 years later I still have moments of overwhelming grief! Just keep those close who provide comfort and hold onto them! I remember how kind your dad was and always quick to smile. I was always in awe of the relationship you had with him and felt from him how much he loved and was proud of you..truly a great father! I hope you are able to find some peace and comfort during those sad moments:)
Thank you so much, Dasha!
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